sorry

I know I haven't been blogging lately, and I am sorry. I love reading all your blogs so much, it seems hypocritical to not maintain mine.

For the first winter in many years (maybe 5) that I have needed my lights for SAD (seasonal affective disorder). I have not been happy, and I have not been sleeping. I know that Carolyn and Kerry have been not sleeping more. But I am OLD OLD OLD. Either I can't get to sleep...sometimes all night till 6 am, or else I wake up every freaking hour. I am tired and my body can't take it. Sometimes I resort to ambien after a few days of this because I simply MUST have some sleep. It usually helps for that night, but I find that sometimes it means that the next day without it is worse.

I started my lights yesterday and hope to see some improvement. It has gotten to where I am afraid to go to bed because I am afraid of not sleeping. Doesn't help, I know, but who said I was rational.

I have an appointment with a sleep specialist January 6th for the snoring stuff. Probably I will have another sleep study. I am almost wishing for sleep apnea because then there is a treatment. David won't even sleep with me because of the snoring. perhaps TMI, but it makes me sad (SAD) even more. I know he needs his sleep too, so I try to accept. Actually, it's fun to have a whole king bed to myself, but I miss him.

I know

that I've posted this before, but I wanted to save it because it has the lyrics with it. Feel free to ignore it.


The Mom Song from Northland Video on Vimeo.

All I can say is watch out at the next talent show.

6 am, and the living ain't easy

Since I took codeine syrup for my persistent cough last night, I slept well until 3 am. Here I am 3 hours later, messing with the computer.

I must have deleted all my photo editing software, cause I am trying to do stuff for the big 86 today which probably won't get done because of the aforementioned and because our video card died on Thursday and we didn't get the computer fixed until late last night. Involving 3 trips to Best Buy. I don't even want to talk about it.

Christmas Party

We had a really nice Christmas party this year, with a theme of "international" Christmases. The food was NOT ham and scalloped potatoes. YEA!!! We had little phylo(sp) triangle with spinach in them from greece, potatoes baked from Idaho, some kind of curry dish, empan~adas, red cabbage with apples, strudel-type thingie, stollen, and a bunch more that I cannot remember.

One thing though was the same as always: Kids running loose through the gym, hallways, stage, etc. I had no kids to herd down, but I saw others who struggled and others who let them run, chase, scream. I hate that. But it is always there. Don't know how to change it.